乐队：Grateful Dead
感恩死亡

曲目：china doll
瓷娃娃

A pistol shot, at five o'clock, the bells of heaven ring,
尖利的声响，划破凌晨五点，荡起天国的钟声
tell me what you done it for, No I won't tell you a thing.
告诉我这是为了什么。不，我什么都不愿诉说
Yesterday I begged you before I hit the ground,
昨天，坠落地面之前，我已经向你恳请
all I leave behind me is only what I found.
而今我仅留下找寻到的点滴

If you can abide it, let the hurdy-gurdy play,
如果你可以忍受，请让手风琴奏起
stranger ones have come by here before they flew away.
局外人们途经这里，然后飞离
I will not condemn you nor yet would I deny,
我不会责怪你，也不会否认自己
I would ask the same of you, but failing, will not die.
我会与你问同样的话。但过失，不会因此消弥

Take up your china doll, take up your china doll,
拾起你的瓷娃娃，拾起你的瓷娃娃
it's only fractured and just a little nervous from the fall.
坠落不过有点令人紧张，并断裂而已
La-la-la-la-la-la-la.
拉拉拉～～

18life

ricky was a young boy, he had a heart of stone.
lived 9 to 5 and worked his fingers to the bone.
just barely got out of school, came from the edge of town.
fought like a switchblade so no one could take him down.
he had no money, oooh no good at home.
he walked the streets a soldier and he fought the world alone
and now it's
18 and life you got it
18 and life you know
your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
18 and life you got it
18 and life you know
your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
tequila in his heartbeat, his veins burned gasoline.
it kept his motor running but it never kept him clean.
they say he loved adventure,"ricky's the wild one."
he married trouble and had a courtship with a gun.
bang bang shoot 'em up, the party never ends.
you can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friend
and now it's
18 and life you got it
18 and life you know
your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
18 and life you got it
18 and life you know
your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
"accidents will happen" they all heard ricky say
he fired his six-shot to the wind that blew a child away.
18 and life you got it
18 and life you know
your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
18 and life you got it
18 and life you know
your crime is time and it's
18 and life to go
go

18岁

Famous Blue Raincoat
著名的蓝雨衣

it's four in the morning
the end of december
i'm writing you now just to see if you're better
现在是清晨四点钟
十二月已然尾声
此刻我写这封给你其实只是想知道你过的好不好

new york is cold
but i like where i'm living
there's music on clinton street all through the evening
纽约很冷
但我很喜欢我住的地方
因为我住的柯灵顿街上彻夜都响着音乐

i hear that you're building your house deep in the desert
are you living for nothing now
hope you're keeping some kind of record
我听说你将自己的生活深筑在荒漠中
难道你现在真的一无所求了吗
多么希望你至少能留住一些值得眷恋的东西

jane came by with a lock of your hair
she said that you gave it to her
the night that you planned to go clear
did you ever go clear
珍回来了，带着一绺你的头发
她说那是你送给她的
是在你决定把事情理清的那天夜里送给她的
而你真的把所有的事情都理清了吗

the last time we saw you
you looked so much older
your famous blue raincoat was torn at the shoulder
you'd been to the station
to meet every train
but she never turned up. i mean lili mariene
上回我们见到你的时候
你看起来苍老了许多
你那件出了名的蓝色雨衣连肩上都磨破了
过去，你总是到车站
去等每一班火车
但是你心中的那位莉莉．玛莲始终没有出现

so you treated some woman to a flake of your life
and when she got home she was nobody's wife
i see you there with a rose in your teeth
one more thin gypsy thief
well, i see jane's awake
she sends her regards
所以你分给其他的女人的，只是你生命中一个小小的碎片
而当她们回到家，她们仍然并不是属于任何人的妻子
我彷佛看见你是个在嘴角间衔着一朵玫瑰，专门窃取爱情
的又一位手法不甚高明的吉普赛小偷
噢，珍现在还醒着
她要我代她向你问好

what can i tell you
what can i tell you
what can i possibly say

我能说什么呢
我还能说什么呢
或者，我说得出口吗

i guess that i miss you
i guess i forgive you
i'm glad that you stood in my way
我想我还是想念你的
我想我还是原谅了你
很高兴你曾经走入我的生命

and if you ever come by here
be it for jane or for me
i want you to know your enemy is sleeping
i want you to know your woman is free
而如果有一天，当你经过我这里的时候
不论是为珍或是为我
我要让你知道，我对你的敌意已然沉睡
而那个曾经属于你的女人，现在已重获自由

thanks for the trouble you took from her eyes
i thought it was there for good
so i never really tired
谢谢你带走她眼中的烦恼
我原先以为那些问题永远都不会消失
所以我并不曾真的试着去帮她

and jane came by with a lock of your hair
she said that you gave it to her
the night when you planned to go clear
然而最后珍回来了，带着一绺你的头发
她说那是你送给她的
是在你决定把事情理清的那天夜里送给她的

sincerely, Leonard Cohen
你诚挚的朋友 伦纳德 科罕

《毕业生》主题曲----《Scarborough Fair》

Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
您是去斯卡布罗集市吗？
Parsley, sage, rosemary & thyme
芜荽，鼠尾草，迷迭香和百里香
Remember me to one who lives there
代我向那里的一个人问好
She once was a true love of mine.
她曾经是我真心深爱的姑娘
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
您是去斯卡布罗集市吗？
Parsley, sage, rosemary & thyme
芜荽，鼠尾草，迷迭香和百里香
Remember me to one who lives there
代我向那里的一个人问好
She once was a true love of mine
她曾经是我真心深爱的姑娘
Tell her to make me a cambric shirt
请让她为我做一件麻布的衣裳
Parsley, sage, rosemary & thyme
芜荽，鼠尾草，迷迭香和百里香
Without no seams nor needlework
没有接缝也找不到针脚
Then she'll be a true love of mine
她就将成为我心爱的姑娘
Tell her to find me an acre of land
请她为我找一亩土地
Parsley, sage, rosemary, & thyme
芜荽，鼠尾草，迷迭香和百里香
Between the salt water and the sea strand
要在那海水和海滩之间
Then she'll be a true love of mine
她就将成为我心爱的姑娘
Tell her to reap it in a sickle of leather
请她用皮做的镰刀收割庄稼
Parsley, sage, rosemary & thyme
芜荽，鼠尾草，迷迭香和百里香
And to gather it all in a bunch of heather
再用石南草札成一堆
Then she'll be a true love of mine
她就将成为我心爱的姑娘
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
您是去斯卡布罗集市吗？
Parsley, sage, rosemary & thyme
芜荽，鼠尾草，迷迭香和百里香
Remember me to one who lives there
代我向那里的一个人问好
She once was a true love of mine.
她曾经是我真心深爱的姑娘

人是很容易变得肤浅的。肤浅就是停留在肌肤上的浅薄。比如在人潮涌动的时候，故意去触碰一下女人的胸脯。但是，睡觉是深刻的。无论如何，我是铁定了今天要睡十个小时的。长期以来的睡眠不足，脸部像一块纱布，那种木匠使用的纱布，使洗面奶都束手无策，白费了它的柔情万千。我翻来覆去，强迫自己继续睡，强迫自己进入梦中。我也确实做梦了。很奇怪，我梦见家里那口大水库堤坝决了口子。大伙一起努力，很快又架了一座桥。而我，仍然在水库里凌波微步，教其他人学习这种神功，可是没有人学会，我一个人在水面上孤独地散步。好几次，我从梦中醒来，看到窗外阳光火辣，车声轰鸣着进入大脑，使我艰难地再次睡去。约莫着到中午了，实在睡不下，起床问人什么时候。我对自己很失望，才十点，那么努力地睡，也才睡了八个小时。

打开网页，才知道香港回归十周年了。那些与此有关的人们正在南方折腾这个事情：

１　有五千人大巡游，官方媒体说是创历年之最。当然是睁眼说的瞎话，掩耳盗铃式的可笑。六周年的五十万大游行去任何一个搜索引擎都搜索得到。
２　曾荫权续任香港特首；胡大主席为深港西部通道剪彩。大局安定，疆土稳固。
３　送了一只熊猫给香港，刘德华主持熊猫馆开幕式。社会和谐，万民祝颂。

这么多风云人物搅和在一起，我竟然感觉不到乐趣。证明我的觉悟很低，在某些方面没有发达的嗅觉，缺乏将事务联线并分析判断的能力。我觉得对不住这个日子，以及这个日子所处的时代。七一还是另一个伟大的节日。一个改天换地的党派的纪念日。我于是下载了陈奕迅的《十年》播放，来表达我对周遭的并非冷淡。可是十年前，我还在念初中，正准备香港回归的知识答题赛，对小女生懵懂的暗恋毫无所知。

十年树了一个怎样的男人？这个时代平庸得连首富都熟视无睹，连拉美的革命家都转换成了票房数字，连最浪漫的网恋都成了家常便饭。十年当然要塑造一个平庸的男人。成为平庸的男人意味着让别人习惯你失去风趣而直接矫情，习惯你的刻苦、紧迫、失败与小小的成功，习惯你枯燥的阅读和说教式的聊天，习惯你出于尊重和职业需要的微笑，习惯你的拒绝回忆往事和沉湎过去，习惯你似乎对所有事情都产生了浓厚的兴趣。平庸的男人并没有多大的乐趣，那些乐趣相对来说都是肤浅的。

我坐在电视机前，一边吃饭，一边看十周年纪念的直播。我看到胡大主席站在讲坛上剪彩，看到他和市民亲切交流。我感到前所未有的乏味，因为我知道这一切出自某人或某个团体的策划，我知道这一切是怎么操作出来的——从策划的角度来讲。在鼎鑫公司的时候，张总对我说过：不管是谁，哪怕是省委书记，在一个策划人手里，都是一颗任你摆布的棋子。

而一个国家、一个世界，而历史、人类，悲观地说，都是被某个人或某个团体把玩的棋子。

这个时候，我渴望从这个时代最震撼的事故中获得欢乐感。直白点说，看电视的时候，我希望从某个角度射来一颗子弹，直接命中胡大主席，当场呜呼。而这个场面正在向全世界直播，全世界都看到社会主义国家的领导人、十三亿泱泱大国的领导人、蒸蒸日上的国度的领导人、对世界格局产生深远影响的红色党派的领导人，被谋杀了，像肯尼迪一样，被谋杀了。多么震惊的事件！我将多么地振奋！

我知道这个事件无法影响中国、世界、地球的进展。中国马上换个领导人一如既往地改革，世界依然不会爆发战争而打破现有格局，地球也照样围着太阳转动。这是“坠机原理”在政治领域的适用。我也不是恐怖分子，也不是分裂主义分子，也不是宗教狂热分子，也不是在野党异见分子，也不是精神病患者。我只是普通民众、无聊看客、无厘头和平庸肤浅的男人。

我还是一个有点神经质的男人。