Is my life for rent?

I've got used to dream my dream before, no pain, no seperated, no rent...God knew why you woke me up.  I rather stay in my dream so that you wont leave.

Once I dream of that we would meet each other at every sun-raised moring, and I always wonder how long should I wait for that day.  But now I know it is no ended...  I don't konw what put the sand into its coming wheel.  Is the reality?  Or you?  I questioned that Does it means to come to me?

It is scarey almost at a though that what I fighted for is what you were ashame of, though I tried and tried.

Well, tonight I listen to the song "life for rent" while I think of you,  I abandoned myself into the memory which belong to us.  Yes, it belong to us.  I forced myself  to accept the turth that the memory not just belong to me, but actually it is not.  You never kept it, or mayb

人生应该追求什么？

很多时候人迷茫的时候，总会找一些可以让自己追求的东西，使自己的人生得以有意思。有些人想要钱，有些人想要权势，有些人要女人/男人，有些人要平淡地过一生，有些人要什么都不用想就到死……林林总总地有N个追求，恐怕上帝都烦了。

然而，对于我们这类对伤天害理的事没兴趣的人，仿佛都在追求一些能在名词前冠上“有意思的”的东西。即便你觉得一件事没意义，到头来，你还会觉得是人生宝贵的经历而使之显得有意义了。

所以，我一度迷惑，人生该追求什么？总觉得无论我现在追求什么，到后来都总是有意义。命运的轮盘中似乎早有记载，某年某月我干了某事，某年某月我可能因为此事而快乐/烦恼着，但再某年某月后，这痛苦的/快乐的经历给我上了人生宝贵的一课程，我懂得了什么。人生又有意义了。

我该追求什么？钱，我之所欲也；权，我之所欲也；爱情，我亦欲得之也。。。

得不到的总想得到，人啊！我啊！