Things disappear. people disappear.
like countless shows on pps, like sean, like xh.
One moment they are part of your life, before you even know, the next they are out.
So treasure them when you still have them.
Even you know you will have to lose it, take your chance to say goodbye.
Cos otherwise, one day you will wake up wondering why they are just gone like that.

That being said, thoughts regarding the past and regrets are two different things.

也许我确实不是一个喜欢承担责任和风险的人
自己的域名玩了两天就失去了兴趣
添加comments麻烦
想加一个下载页也觉得麻烦 不知道会不会纠缠到copyright的种种问题
索性作罢
真正想写点东西的时候我需要的只是一个wysiwyg editor和一个安静的角落
最终还是不得不承认自己是懒人一个

发生了很多事情却不想写下来
好像写下来了就低头认了罪
不写下来就可以装作没有发生似的
伤害 不安 我种种苍白无力的道歉
无可否认 无处可逃

我不认识现在的自己 不喜欢现在的自己
却无法回到从前
卡在那里上不得下不得
看不到出口

突然间害怕。。。
心里揪着 难过的想哭

Québec City and Xi'an are sisters cities.
Maybe we should also abandon some of those boring 一路 二路 and rename them with our sister cities' names =)

List of our sister cities from wikipedia:
Nara, Japan. (1974)
Kyoto, Japan. (1974)
Edinburgh, United Kingdom. (1985)
Pau, France. (1986)
Kansas City, United States. (1989)
Esfahan, Iran. (1989)
Dortmund, Germany. (1991)
Lahore, Pakistan. (1992)
Funabashi, Japan. (1994)
Gyeongju, South Korea. (1994)
Iaşi, Romania. (1994)
Dnipropetrovsk, Ukraine. (1995)
Istanbul, Turkey. (1996)
Kathmandu, Nepal. (1996)
Brasília, Brazil. (1997)
Québec City, Canada. (2001)
Córdoba, Argentina. (2006)
Pompei, Italy. (2007)
Athens, Greece
Birmingham, United Kingdom.
Cusco, Peru.

those ones i know are all pretty old....
that's probably why they are sister cities with us =)

老妈：你这又买的啥？
我：登山鞋
老妈：你还能干啥？
我：我啥都要干 干不完我不死
老妈：=_=

老妈：你几岁了？
我：（可爱状）两～～岁～～
老妈：乘十！
我：=_=

I Love You Man Soundtrack (Songs) - Track Listing
1. Good Times - Latch Key Kid
2. Oxford Comma    - Vampire Weekend
3. Tom Sawyer - Rush
4. Set You Free - The Black Keys
5. Lights Out - Santogold
6. Soul Of A Man    - Beck
7. Limelight    - Rush
8. Let The Good Times Roll - The Cars
9. Campus - Vampire Weekend
10. Mr. Pitiful - Matt Costa
11. Dancing With Myself - The Donnas
12. Waterslide - The Bonedaddys
13. Limelight - Paul Rudd & Jason Segel
14. Ain’t That A Kick In The Head - Dean Martin
15. Peter and Zooey - Teddy Shapiro
(The song from the trailer - Here Comes Your Man by Pixies - is not included)

no wonder it is called 全世界最适合居住的城市
it is a city that literally has EVERYTHING
water surrounding,
4 seasons,
a world famous uni,
high buildings at downtown area,
lots of trees and flowers,
big and beautiful stanley park,
a mountain where u can ski,
a provincial park near by,
an airport with FREE wireless access,
great public transport system (you don't even have to pay sometimes lol)...

it is really pleasant to stay in Vancouver
all i feel is free and easy
cab drivers are always friendly and talkative
Maybe it's the thing about ca,
people are from everywhere.
almost no one can claim that they are local.
real natives are too busy over fighting their lands back with the government
So when everyone are foreigners, there's no foreigner =)

For people who's tired of having no home to go to,
they don't expect more than just "free and easy", which is what Vancouver offers.

While cycling in Stanley park, a thought came to my mind:
whoever wanna marry me, marry me in Vancouver please
LOL
yup, before I find a even better city, now it's Vancouver =)

Working at downtown 9 to 5
driving back home passing by the seaside
taking a walk on the beach with someone ;)
taking a jog in stanley park on the weekend morning/noon
bringing the kids to picnic and hiking in the provincial park
going to ski for a whole week during winter
sailing in the summer when the weather is good...

It seems to be somewhere to have a life =)

"I've been traveling on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone"

again, on the run..
I'm just tired
tired of leaving pieces of me here and there
everywhere to go to, nowhere to belong to
what for..

Last lecture of CS349. I filmed it because my hottest professor, Michael Terry, said last lecture is one of his better lectures=)
Part 1-3 may not be so interesting for non-cs people. ermmm... actually so are part 4 and 5... lol
Anyway, it's NOT a technical lecture. Part 4 and 5 are my favorite. They are about what you can do with CS and how can you do better. Feel free to skip part 1-3.











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btw, it's very likely i will be moving out hi.baidu within 3 months, cos I notice it started to get very slow.
Guess hi.baidu is now getting more and more crowded..
I just started to work on the site.
A friend just bought a server, so could let him help me host =P
build up the blog and transfer all the entries will take some time.
Can't really spend a lot of time on it before exams end.
Anyway, just something to look forward to =)

I will know when i have to.

there's never an easy way out. The only way out is to deal with it.

看着下雪 突然意识到是在热带呆的太久 让人忘记了对春天的期待.

year 1 it was me on the floor; now it's my notes on the floor; till year 3 I guess it will be me and my notes on the floor...

they love your smile. when you tear they turn their heads away.

i can tell whether they use sweetener or real sugar. sweetener just doesn't give you the same kind of satisfaction as sugar does.

you just never know who they will love and why. like u never know who u will love and why.. so shut up.

when people say "i miss u", most of the time they actually mean "i'm lonely".

no one is slower than me in writing an academic paper.

what's not mine is not mine.

the reason why plurk exists is because ppl need somewhere to talk to themselves...

freedom is the best thing I have. and it is the last thing I have too.

If blog is awt, twitter is swing; if blog is java, twitter is jython.

What do i like abt Avril Lavigne? love, hate, get married and live on. simply that..


How a man look at you depends on how many clothes you have on. --Abel

If you upset enough of them, you will not have any of them -- Eric Schmidt told newspapers so

men are binary. --Abel

Nothing slows down traffic like a cop. --Twilight

definition of "crash": The only thing windows does quickly -- urban dictionary

In the long run, we are all dead -- JM Keynes

If you love something, set it free, if it comes back to you, it is yours, if it doesn't , it never was. -- null

Philosophy offers no answers. There are no right answers.Programming doesn't offer answers as to the meaning of life, but it is concrete. -- null

LOL show time...
都是拿手机照的 质量不好 将就着看吧

炸虾仁 老妈出的注意

土豆炖肉末

青菜炒蘑菇

我最拿手的 HOHO～ 人人都夸我做鱼做的好
尝了我做的鱼 emma said: you are the kitchen genius! lol

米饭和紫菜鸡蛋汤

我某天的某一顿饭

炒米饭 我最常做的
因为省事省时又好吃 快的时候20分钟连做带吃 =)

其实是两盘菜
炒茄子和虾仁炒菠菜

又是某天的某顿饭
炒了个芹菜 炒了个菜花
主食是意大利通心粉因为没有米了=_=

这个是没有什么技术含量的
酸汤水饺＋混沌 因为上次饺子没煮完就把多出来的顺便和混沌一起煮了 lol

做饭实际很简单 有那么点时间和耐心 再加上点想像力 一顿饭就上桌了 =)
i'm a lady. it's in my blood. lol

是“绪”不是“猪”
要confirm返程机票
要extend住宿
要复习考试
要plan温哥华行程
要email boss问他我的intership带薪不带薪
要决定哪个open source project to join
要决定要不要转cs
要决定下学期拿哪些课
要面对下学期的住宿问题
要准备好回家扛大梁
要准备好面对寂寞
要学会抵制诱惑

life...

"At the same time, Bill Gates came to Ottawa to deliver a keynote address to the Canadian Government. I met Bill and he informed me (in 1994) of some interesting facts: MS uses the WatCom C compiler for the VB JET engine, some of MS-Access, and all of FoxPro for Windows. MS could not convert the products to use their own C compiler as it was 400 time slower than WatCom's and the user community would not stand for the performance loss."
Source: History of PowerBuilder as told by Chris Pollach

Maybe that's how Bill Gates learned to be graceful... cos he had been embarrassed like this for too many times! And I just can't help to be proud of UWaterloo lol

title + since my last update.
and i realize my last few updates are just crap... just pasting youtube videos...
anyway... let's talk about life in Waterloo
I wasn't able to do it for the past 2 months because i know exactly what i would have written at that time. I would have complained about life here.
haha I did have a lot to complain about. here is a list:
1. getting my historically lowest marks in a programming course: 29/100.
2. laptop crashed, reason being motherboard spoiled...
3. lost squash shoes, my new t-shirt, track pants and pajamas my grandma made me T.T
4. had a somewhat crappy trip to quebec
5. no shoulder to cry on while having such a rough time!
and i would like to add in the scenario: it's -10 or lowest can be -20°C, snowing with cold wind blowing.. and the stupid bus comes every half an hour...

now if i write about all the complaints above, there will be more than just complaints =)
now details:
1. 29/100, i will always always remember this... such a shame... lol. and it's not that i didn't work on the assignment, the worst part is that i did. and i worked hard on it. and 29 is what i got for my hard work... well... there are reasons why i "became stupid" after i came to waterloo. it's all about expectations. I didn't expect myself having to work hard while on exchange. come on, nus students all know what exchange means. it means "school pays, u travel". definitely not "school pays, u study". but for me, when every other exchange student was out there having all kinds of fun and planning their trips, i was stuck with school work. same as them, i only expect a pass for each course. but difference is that i didn't expect it was so hard to get a pass! so I studied with my "feelings hurt" lol... well, it took me some time to get that this is waterloo and i'm here as a cs student. I'm sure I will be proud of having studied in waterloo someday. UW's cs rocks! and i'm pretty positive that it will rock some more in the future. we will see.
Other than my expectation, my misery is also because of the expectations UW profs and students have. There are lots of co-op students here. (I heard UW is the very first in the world to initiate co-op program, in which students study for 2 terms and work as interns for 1 term every academic year, except for the first year, which they study for 3 semesters in a row. btw, UW has 3 terms, spring summer and winter, for every AY) These co-op students have hands-on experiences in the industry. They know what it is like to "program/code for a living". while a 4th year nus student is still complaining about OS prof not teaching C, a UW 3rd year student will be suprised to know any one from the same batch not knowing C. This is the difference. The profs expect the students to know more and the students expect learning to be tough. Also, i guess somehow all these also because the uni expect their undergraduate student to be able to work in the industry. Pressure comes from different stakeholders and thus push up the expectation and so is standard.
After i thought trough these things, i finally accept the fact that there's no easy way out for me. Actually there is only one way out, which is to face it and deal with it. And it is always the case lol... anywayz... I get myself ready to work my ass off and to have a completely different exchange experience. starting from there, from 29/100, MC computer lab becomes my 2nd home; I started to get to know ppl working together in the lab; I asked my classmates questions when they queue up for Tim Hortons coffee. (lol i seldom queue up for tim hortons cos the queue is always freaking long and i'm not into coffee anyway. I ask questions when my classmates queuing up so that there's no way they can get away from me lol) In such ways, I found people to work with. We helped each other as far as we can. From all these people I learnt how their lives are like and what persistence really means. It doesn't matter where u are from, and what ur name is, as long as u can do ur job well, as long as u r willing to contribute and help out, u always have somewhere to be. hehe.. maybe that's part of my American dream... i didn't know i have one until recent.
My grades are getting better, though not excellent. I'm quite happy with it already. i know there's a large gap to fill if i wanna be a good student here.. For my killer course, User Interface, my midterm is 53/70 and 2nd assignment i got 76/90. As for assignment 3, I'm expecting my 1st 90/100 for this course =) keep my figures crossed~ btw, UI now become one of my favourite course after CS2281 programming in unix.

2. laptop. well... my hp abandoned me... technician at CampusTech said it was not worth it to get it repaired. might as well buy a new one. That time was a crucial period for my UI assignment 3, i had to get a new comp or i would have to literally LIVE in the lab. This is how i got my MacBook... just on the 2nd day after my hp left me. yea i change fast lol... it costed me a fortune but still, it's cheaper than in SG or CN and surprisingly, even cheaper than in the US. It's my very first mac. ppl, specially those who own a mac, keep telling me how cool mac is and how much i will like it as i use it longer. hehe.. so far my mac and i are still not that close, but we'll see..

3. loss of belongings... my dad said i lost a set so now i can streak by now=_=||
Squash shoes and the new t-shirt i lost them INSIDE the woman's locker room in PAC. And I'm quite positive that i locked my shoes inside my locker... so weird that it went missing. And my question is WHO WOULD WANT A PAIR OF USED STINKY SHOES??? Also the weird part comes from that a few days after i lost my T, a guy from the swing class (the lindy hop swing not javax.swing lol) said on msn that he had my T and asked me to go and pick it up. i thought he was joking so i asked if he was joking. He said no joking, he had it. that's just freaking weird... when i asked how i found it, he never replied and never told me where to pick it up and again talked to me about it....
My track pants and pajamas i left them in the hotel in quebec city. When i went back asking for them, the hotel said the room has been cleaned but they didn't find any of my clothes. Lesson learnt: leave tips the same time u leave a hotel... Also, i changed my locker and now take extra care of my belongings... make sure i have everything packed before i leave.

4. quebec trip. other than lost my track pants and pajamas, what makes this trip crappy are people. Well, i really appreciate the effort you made to organize this trip. but won't lie about how i really feel about it. I dun like to waste people's time and I hate it when you waste mine... so being inefficient is like.. killing me. Lessons learnt: no more big group trips for me. And some stories to share: forget abt the names, just the stories. The driver told the passenger, which is a friend of mine, that "you should not sleep while the drivers are awake. At least show some respect to the drivers!" Another one: a first class honour from engineering agreed to pack breakfast for me one morning. Having me waited for 2 hours+, he sent me a msg "I didn't manage to pack breakfast for you, because they dun do take-away. we are on our way back". what should i say? maybe "stop being rediculous and try to use ur brain sometimes"?
Put aside people, I enjoyed the scenery though. Quebec city is just one of the most beautiful city i've ever been to. Someday I will go there again, with someone who means something to me =) Skiing in Mont Tremplant was great. I only had a beginner's package; but I would have regretted if I never sneaked in the advance lift lol. It took me 35 min to ski down a route which normally takes others around 15 min. And I fell down 7 times. haha. luckily i didn't hurt myself and IT WAS SUPER DUPER FUN!!! i will ski again whenever there's a chance =)

5. shishi is at the other end of the world while I had to go through all these by myself... Most of the time ur msn pic is grey and ringing u on skype all i got was the ringing sound.. It took me some time to realize that it is not about you care less about me because of the distance; it's just we being distant because of the distance. Once there's no more distance, we can go back right? you will still be the one who's always there for me.. For now, I just have to get used to being on myself.

The scenario I described right at the beginning is just a normal scenario, the worst, which I'm sure I'm gonna remember it for the rest of my life, is that one night 3pm+ I was freaking tired after working in the lab. So i decided to go back to CLV, my house to get a bit of sleep. No more bus at that hour, so i have to walk. On my way back, it was snowing and super cold... I wanted to take a shortcut but ending up with me trapped in a small jungle in between campus and CLV. I knew after passing through the jungle I would reach the road and then would be able to get back to clv. so I walked in following a small path. At first the snow was not no deep on the small path, but as I walked deeper into the jungle, the path became narrower and narrower and the snow deeper and deeper. Half way inside the jungle, the snow was already over my knee height... It just couldn't feel worse when u were along at a cold winter midnight getting trapped in deep snow inside a jungle =_=||| well... in the end i managed to get out, with the part of my jeans under my knees frozen and my feet lost feeling. lol.

Let me end this super long blog entry with this:
At least now i know what i'm capable of=)