欢岛其实是千年琴妖.

你遗书的版本1。

你遗书的版本2。


4月是Kurt月
4月是Kurt月
4月是Kurt月
4月是Kurt月
4月是Kurt月
4月是Kurt月
4月是Kurt月




这说起来很俗

17岁当天听到

"Hello Hello How low?"

<<nevermind>>是生日礼物之一

来自长着鱼眼睛的同班同学



在夜里

精神病院的坚硬的宿舍的床上

瞬间痉挛

我动物性的狂躁始于那刻。

到现在也无法消除的荆棘。

其他的都给我去死！





那时习惯用红笔

把很多很多字写在巨大的肯德基纸上。

精神病院的一切

足以让一个人刀枪不入

但改变不了一个废人的本质





当绝望如呼吸般

觉得这脑浆崩裂之声音和大脑的某些纹路如齿轮般密切对应.

就像GALA在Mao唱 suicide is painless

注定被这些华丽杀戮引诱。

那些扫弦的午夜感

虽然像精子一样虚弱

但是，血管扩张的快感。

确确实实存在。





"I swear that I don't have a gun."

无法不爱上他

他的遗书是我的噩梦



"I'm so ugly

That's ok cause so r u"

无法不缱绻。



所以我漂流四海墙头不变得居然是courney love的海报

裸体抱着他的骨血。刺激。

他大声地向你唱出：My girl where did u sleep last night?

你还是狂躁难安

你金发

你自毁

但你还活得好好

说I love u的那个灵魂

不知道在哪里





看Last days。

慢慢虚弱下来的生命。

"It's better to burn out, than fade away."



说什么都是多余。

4月要穿海魂衫。

4月抑郁症杀死我。

4月注定像剖尸体一样剖开自己。

4月要唱Heart-shape-box.西厢记的那天居然有人在跟唱。

"I love u I'm not gonna crack."





To Boddah:

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complaind. This note should be pretty easy to understand.All the warnings from the Punk Rock 101 Courses over the years, it\'s my first introduction to the, shall we say ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has been proven to be very true. I haven\'t felt the excitement of listening to, as well as creating music, along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things,for example when we\'re backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins. It doesn\'t affect me in the way which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love and relish the love and admiration from the crowd,which is something I totally admire and envy.



The fact is,I can\'t fool you, any of you. It simply isn\'t fair to you,or to me. The worst crime can think of would be to pull people off by faking it, pretending as if I\'m having one 100% fun.



Sometimes I feeln as though I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on-stage. I\'ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do,God believe me, I do, but it\'s not enough. I appreciate the fact that I, and we, have affected, and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of the narcisists who only appreciate things when they\'re alone. I\'m too sensitive,I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm.But, what\'s sad is our child. On our last three tours, I\'ve had a much better appreciation of all the people I\'ve known personally, and as fans of our music. But I still can\'t get out the frustration, the guilt, and the sympathy I have for everybody. There is good in all of us, and I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive unappreciative pisces Jesus man! why don\'t you just enjoy it? I dont know!



I have a of a wide who sweats ambition and empadny,and a daughter who reminds me to much of what I use to be.full of love and joy, every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I cant stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self destructive, deathrocker she become.



I have it good, very good,and I\'m grateful, but since the age of seven, I\'ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Empathy only because I love and feel for people too much I guess.Thank you from the pit of my burning nauseas stomach for your letters and concern during the last years. I\'m too much of a neurotic moody person and I don\'t have the passion anymore,so remember, it\'s better to burn out, than fade away.



Peace, love, empathy,



Kurt Cobain



Frances and Courtney,



I\'ll be at your altar.



Please keep going Courtney



for Frances



for her life which will be so much



happier without me.



I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!






　
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