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Well, I am worried about the seat again, again. Obviously, it is the Toefl seat. However, I do not want to straightly watch the PC's scene any more, especially, waiting for any empty seat. When will I take such test again, maybe double again? I do not know. Maybe is the end of this month or next month, who care?

    These days, I have done the same series of things, such as, reading novels, listening to the IPOD and surfing on line. Ok, I acknowledge that surfing on line, just for fun, is taking up most of my time. This is stupid, I really know, at such time.

     Oh, what a pity design it is.

    Sorry, my writing is just like an elementary student's diary, maybe much lower.

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[All will depend on you, T score]

Statistics, Mathematics and Applied Mathematics, Social Work and QMSS are my most favorite direction, oh no, exactly should be called as academic area. PH.D. or master, which should I apply for? All of these questions should depend on my TOEFL score. Well, encourage myself: Come on, do not make you so hesitated! Well done. 100+ yeah.

Notice: I will write my private diary in English from now on. This decision is just for three reasons. One is for my pooooor independent writing in English. The second is for fun and hoping others' advices: do not pat me^^. The last one is that this can prevent my diary missing when my PC does not work one day. Yep, my PC does not decline to me the day before yesterday.

Leaf and Tree

One day, I really confused with some questions, such as why I want to go abroad. If so, why don't I complete the idea as I design and promise? It is headache problem to me, just like the nightmare. Think, think and think day and night, finally, I knew I did not have any supporting point to let me keep my step. I acknowledge I was missing.

    Another day, I really recognized that my responsibility should do my best to give the right answer to myself, not my parents. This is true. This is the fact.

     Several days has been passed.

    These days, I find the missing guy who not only miss her identity, but her direction since before.So fortunate, am I?

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I have read the "Wuthering Heights" since yesterday. It is comparatively completed half. It makes me re-find the feeling of my children hood, reading several books surrounding quiet and peaceful environment. It is just the life style I designed few days ago: books, exact camera, favorite music and no computer. However, no computer is just a joke and unrealistic idea. ^^

    I hope such "fresh air" will be permanent.

[SEE YOU TOMORROW! Thanks! ^^]

总觉得自己说话很灵验，仿佛长满爬山虎的古堡里的巫婆一般。四月的谎言兑现，四月的设想实现。

电闪雷鸣后大雨急至。这样的日子里最适合写写字然后听首好歌。

本以为这个假期可以做个旅人，走走，写写字，看看世间风情万种的各类人群风景。可惜，因为那迷茫的日子迷茫的信念，最后导致要再次考托福。立下的志向，扬言要实现的目标，一切变成了压在肩上的担子，有责任并有义务的要承担下来。仿佛是什么痛苦，仿佛是什么苦难，其实都是自怨自艾；其实都是心甘情愿的，不是么。如若那么灵验，我说，若能够真的坚持下来那些所谓的计划和design就一定会成功，灵吗？

或许。

跟一座城说晚安，多么可笑。可是，此刻，我的的确确想念京城。那一天都有多少人背上行囊离开，带着户口卡带着报到证带着自己所有的家当，早知这样，何必迁移过来。离开的是一座城，留下的确是四年所有的记忆，挥之不去，如若洒脱，那么，或许就不会这么想念了。

[再见我的大学，再见了我的本科时光。]

       2009.06.28 毕业礼，为了躲避那耀眼的阳光，我选择在鸽子笼后的草地上坐下，看着诸位在台上发言，之后放飞鸽子，放飞希望，从此，我们将踏上新的征程。田家炳，尹校长给我授予学位，激动不已，过后，各位一起合影，角落里，街道上，挤满了人群，看着稀稀疏疏熟悉的面孔，3300名学生自此个奔天涯，2005年我们从天涯海角相聚在一起，2009年的今天将我们分开，时间多么残酷，现实多么无奈。不过无论怎样，我们告别了大学之后这将是个新的起点，我们启程了，一路顺风。我希望几年之后同学们见面时可以无一人缺席。

       送走了饼哥，送走了小宁，送走了蜜，然后机器猫和嘿嘿送走了我。就是这样，在20度左右的家中宅着写下这篇日记。

       前途漫漫，祝各位拥有明媚的未来。望安好，莫相忘。

酷热难耐的桑拿天还没有来到呢，可是，我们已然要拖着行李离开学校。

2009.06.20日，北京林业大学，银杏路上，09级毕业生跳蚤市场。卖掉了四双鞋子，一条裤子，送掉一本书，无数小挂饰。部分物品扔掉或者废品处理掉，部分的物品邮寄回家，部分打包放在机器猫家和阿姨家。其实卖东西是次要的，最主要是感受气氛。这一天，熙熙攘攘的银杏路上挤满了人，那些熟悉的面孔，无论是否相熟，至少见了面还是会有不少面熟的感觉，可是，仅于此刻。别了今天，或许再见就是再也不见。别了今天，很多同学开始收拾行囊离开宿舍。别了今天.....我想再怎样都是美好的回忆吧，告别了那些往昔......迎接我们的又会是怎样的生活怎样的世界，或许，只有天知道。

祝君安好。这是我写给大家的话。可是，究竟有多少人留下了，走开了，或者驻足不前。某日，在大洋彼岸，是否可以等待这样一个人的到来或者一个答案。

聚会，分手，拥抱，握手，唱K，夜店，酒吧，酩酊大醉，寄送行李，车来车往，泪痕，挥手....

再见，我亲爱的你们。希望在26日的时候，大家可以微笑的合影。