今天又陪小M一起走到金宝，她去取车，我就到车站坐车回家了。
一路上我们还是谈笑风生，可是我很难受，这种快乐短时间内不会再现了，还有4天就要离开这个待了1年零6个月的公司，离开这个待了6个月的team，离开这个可爱的天使老板，离开我的无忧岁月。我舍不得，所以我在路上又哭了，心疼。
Wish to work with u again....

今天是个有纪念意义的一天，我这场为期2周（包括十一黄金周）的辞职风波终于在今天落下了帷幕，我还是决定要走了，从一个人间仙境，跳到一个不知深浅的火坑。

今天老大放我走的时候，我怎么一点都不兴奋呢？

趁我年轻，还是能惪瑟就惪瑟吧。

从这次辞职，我发现我真的特墨迹特没主见特耳根子软特怂特没劲特2

主啊，保佑我吧。。。。。。

Up till now, I don't know I hate myself more of my life more cuz ever since the beginning of this year, I've been praying to have a change in my life, now I got one, a huge one, a tough one, one change that I don't think I can handle, a change that needs a determined decision of mine, but so far I haven't figured out which path to take or which kind of future to choose, I'm in a pickle, seriously.

If only I can throw a coin to decide, if only this change hasn't struck me this hard, if only my life could be the way it used to be, if only I have a tough mind, if only there is anyone who could decide this for me, if only I didn't step into this mess initially, God, u really knows how to torture a human!

I have to make the call when this holiday ends, so far I haven't no clue yet.

下午看了GA回归后的第一集，结尾的一大段旁白很适合我现在的心情，记录下来吧。
Grief may be a thing we all have in common
but it looks different on everyone.

It isn't just death we have to grieve, it's life...it's loss... it's change.

And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad, the thing we gotta try to remeber is that it can turn on a dime...that's how you stay alive.
When it hurts so much u can't breathe,that's how you survive...

By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly...it won't feel this way.It won't hurt this much.

Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
So the best we can do, the best anyone can do,is try for honesty.
The very crappy thing, the very worst part of grief, is that you can't control it.
The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes, and let is go when we can.

The very worst part is that the minute u think you're past it, it starts all over again, and every time, it takes your breath away.

怎么写了这么矫情的标题？
Oh, Aug

Cuz every Aug in my past meant sth.
It could be a change.
It could be a new start.
It could be end of a journey.
But what's it this Aug? I just don't know yet.

送给自己下面这首歌:
Miley Cyrus - The Climb


I can almost see it / 眼前依稀浮现
That dream I'm dreamin' but / 萦绕心头的那个梦境
There's a voice inside my head saying / 脑海里却响起一个声音
you'll never reach it / 你永远也不会到达彼岸
Every step I'm taking / 我迈出的每一步
Every move I make feels /我做过的每件事
Lost with no direction / 无不使我迷失方向
My faith is shakin / 开始动摇的，是我的信念
But I, I gotta keep tryin. / 可我，我还是要继续求索
Gotta keep my head held high / 还是要挺胸抬头、阔步前行

There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达峰顶
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side / 不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登

The struggles I'm facing / 我面对的每次搏击
The chances I'm taking / 我抓住的每次机遇
Sometimes might knock me down but / 有时会令我一败涂地
No I'm not breaking / 却决不会磨去我的意志
I may not know it / 或许我不懂其中的意义
But these are the moments that / 但这些时刻却会成为
I'm gonna remember most, yeah / 我一辈子可以珍藏的回忆，啊
Just gotta keep going / 只管继续前进
And I, I gotta be strong / 我要，我要变得坚强
Just keep pushing on 'cause / 只须奋力前行，因为

There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达顶峰
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side / 不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登

Yeah-yeah / 啊 -

There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes you're gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达顶峰
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side /  不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登

Yeah-yeah-yeah / 啊 - -

Keep on moving / 继续前行
Keep climbing / 继续攀登
Keep the faith / 坚守信念
Baby / 宝贝

It's all about / 这一切就是
It's all about the climb / 这一切就是攀登
Keep your faith / 坚守你的信念
Keep your faith / 坚守你的信念