You used to asked me if I ever lied to you, I said no. In fact, I did, especially recently.

When you asked me if i was ok? I said, yes, I'm fine. But actually, I'm not, not at all. I felt upset, stomachache, sleeplessness, nausea.... all these days. My stomach keeps torturing me, I worried that my health situation is getting worse, I don't want to go back to the worst and darkest days just as several years ago --- anorexia. But I can't tell you.

You asked me why I felt nau

when is the deadline? Je ne sais pas.....

But I think it's approaching.... I will leave you forever, I will say farewell to you, my babe.

I am tired, so tired and exhausted. I

整理七七八八的东西时，从笔记本里掉出一片纸。上面是这次回来时，坐机场大巴时写的乱七八糟的东西。现在看看，倒也舍不得扔了。

通往机场的路上，坐在机场大巴里看向窗外，上海灯红酒绿的夜景，似有一丝恍惚。曾经的我那么向往上海，其中的原因不也有被她光鲜的外表所吸引，这一原因吗。可现在就这样看着。今晚月亮圆而亮，镶嵌在五光十色的写字楼中间，景色异常美丽，我甚至有拿出相机拍下的冲动。

可心中冒出些悲凉，走过那么多城市，忽然间