可惜，我没有一个好开头，所以很多次，我写写删删，最后也都作罢。

我听音乐听得要睡着，我看网页看得腰子痛。

难得一个清闲的工作日，接着盼望许久的假期，我居然空虚的要死。

于是，实在找不到事可做的我，只好打开网页写博客。

可我已经厌烦这样的碎碎念。反正我想的不会写出来，我写的也没经过我的大脑。

我似乎变成一个更矛盾的人，可这样的分裂，却让我看上去更加平和。

我开始做以往那些我很讨厌的事情，打扫、洗衣、做饭，却发觉在这方面，其实我有很高的天赋。

我尝试融入平淡的人生。才发现，以往对尖锐的渴望，都是自己的幻想。我完全不用融入，我本就在其中。

In junior middle school, I became your fans at once after I knew you better. In that crazy age, I spent almost all my spare time collecting your music, your pictures, your news and your performance.

Your spirits has a great influence on me. Even if I only concentrated on the melody, didn't realize the implications of the songs, I was still moved by the love and peace you wanted to convey. Your music is transnational.

I wasn't a conscientious fans, slowly, my life was enriched with other things and my passion was diverted. As time goes by, you seemed to fade from our memory except those negative news.

I didn't focus my attention on you again, but from the news, I can feel your goodness and sadness, your woeful eyes betrayed your feeling.

I am always believing you, you are innocent. In my heart, you never change yourself.

At last you cheered up, nothing can bring you down. You planned to give a series of concerts in London. I except one day you can come to China, and I will go to see your show. I will stand in the middle of the area and shout: MJ, I love you forever.

But June26, a boring day as usual, a sudden news changed everything, you passed away.

I can't describe my feeling. I remember how I loved you before, you were repressed and solitary all your life. My eyes moistened several times.

All of the controversies are gone with the wind. Finally, the public will only remember your contributions to the world after your death.

Do you remember the time? You are not alone, you heal the world.

You haven't gone yet, just change place, continue dancing and singing.

MJ, I love you forever.

爸妈的首次到来，见证这个让我生活了快十年的城市

破败，可能是他们眼中，我的生活状态

迅速决定买房，风风火火，下周，我将搬进独属于自己的第一个家，结束这些年的飘荡人生

看房的过程中，自己成了城铁达人。每天钻进拥挤的车厢，摇摇晃晃的奔向郊区，然后再浑浑噩噩回到自己住的城里

终于，贴上很多年关于海淀“莘莘学子、大学圈、青春”的标签，要被朝阳“明星众多、798、鸟巢、亚奥商圈”取代

激动？高兴？为什么反倒哭了好几次

很累，也并没有预期的充实感，还是只能用音乐快乐自己

珊妮公主的第二次到来，着实让我畅快了一把

爱上美丽的女生，这一刹那

漂亮头发、鸦片香、艺术指甲、玻璃丝袜，不管她的长相

你，你兴奋了吗

我看现场不爱拍照，借用豆瓣同学一张图

生活总是缺点什么，却也凑活过得去。想去改变，偏又少点动力。

总想起早年看过的卫斯理的雨花台石。

喜怒哀乐构成生活的全部，成为我们活过的唯一证据。

可相对于人类的发展，作为个人的我们，只不过是沧海一粟。

夜晚，我们抬头看天上的星星，那些忽明忽暗的发光体，却是几千万光年前存在的东西，好奇妙。

地球上的人们，甚至冲不出银河系，去了解宇宙的奥妙。

原来地球也只是宇宙的小尘埃而已。

穷其一生，人类也许也无法了解宇宙的一切。

其实，说不定，宇宙也只是某人手上把玩的一块雨花台石。

所以，是放大自己的悲喜，还是淡定看待发生的一切。

不过都是庸人自扰之。