nth to do....

dont know wat to post abt

i shall start reading the host...

friday i found a nice book,, forgot the name... abt to buy but no money... broke recently...

next sat art exhibition... prepared my works...

holiday life is really very very boring... ARH...

that day when i went home, i slept 12 full hours, when i woke up i thought it was still ard 9 in the morning, but it was alr noon, for the first time in my 18 years.

and for the first time, i realise how timid i am. we never even dare to ask for the pay for the 5 hours, though we might be useless for the 5 hours, but we did stood there and tried to welcome every customer we saw, i am not asking for a high pay of cos, but at least to be paid- that's respect, afterall they wanted us there. 顿时有种被人当狗耍的感觉。

from the next time onwards, i am going to settle every detail before i consider working for them.

though we may not be experienced, but we are not to be chosen by a job, but to choose a job. i am never letting go of my dignity, never to be manipulated again.

well, i should take that as a lesson, an experience.

we were nervous on our way to the shop... we met the boss, he's from german, a very serious look and nerver smiles, i dont know if thats because he's just acting like a BOSS or he's being a german. he's apparently not very happy abt the fact that we werent experienced but he didnt have any others to do his job. not very willingly, he arranged a day (saturday) to TRY us and so to observe us. from 11am to 7pm. that's very scary esp when he said he would be there to observe us... nah.... to decide whether to use us or not... hais.... not sure of the payment... but shouldnt be below 5 bah... i am hoping for a 6.5... would be higher if we are experienced... hais....

btw the shop is in ION....

hais........ hopefully we can get the job.... XD

and then after the job searching, we went looking for a FAM dress. well we all found one in the end. but my is a bit .... hmmm....exposed?... and zhizhu's one is too expensive 130 dollars.. hahaha.... so we both ended up very very confused... so i went home asking my mom for her advice. i was expecting sth like... 'you pay the money, you decide'... but she AGREED XD hee.. and she's sharing the scarf i am buying XD sooo i am quite happy now.... now left with a pair of shoes, some accessories, contact lens and make ups... 70 + 50 + 20 + 25 + ? = 200 hopefully within 200 bucks...

and and and i am REUSING them for my prom in J2.

i realise i really has super little knowledge abt china's recent events...

if i say i was still having trouble differentiating hu from wen yesterday night, every chinese will laugh at me. but i really took very very long to actually able to differentiate them...

cus the first time i heard of them... my dad say they have pretty much similarities among them, first is their surnames... HA.. REALLY REALLY mean NO offence... but hu is like hu2 tu2.. then wen = 瘟. SO,,, HEEE. then i always mistake them... and as what i rmb of their faces,, they look alike too... maybe not.. but that's my first impression of them... and my dad explain to me for more than 10+ times, i still kept on forgeting who is who... eh...hais...

ah.....

“父爱是口深井，儿子那浅浅的桶，怎么能量出井的深度呢……”

细想，中华五千年，孝字当先，多少歌谣，古诗或典故都歌颂父母对孩子的爱。也就是这份爱，这份孝一直都让我自豪，让我骄傲我是中国人。在越受西方国家影响的国家里，这种亲情就少一份色彩。在国外呆了这些年，我也体会到大都市里的自私和冷漠。我住的地虽然是成天讲礼俗，凡事讲传统，说的一套套，做的一套套，这种都是表面的，可在骨子里，已经慢慢淡化了。当你看多了，接触的人多了，你也就渐渐发现了。中国虽然在不少方面不及这儿，但至少人与人之间不是只是一种你我他，而是一体的。

my mom never liked my english name. cus she said the letters are short and fat and they are ugly... whatever, i used it anyway.. but quite a handful of ppl kept on pronouncing it wrongly... ji ra... as well call me zebra...

anyway ... i watched hua mulan again these two days... hee... it's so nice XD so i went online, did some research abt hua mulun... then i ended up confusing myself... in the history... no one actually sure that her surname is HUA... some say wei and some have their other versions...

there are little history background of this historic person... the main source of all the stories come from the 《木兰辞》:

   唧唧复唧唧，木兰当户织。
不闻机杼声，惟闻女叹息。
问女何所思，问女何所忆。
女亦无所思，女亦无所忆。
昨夜见军帖，可汗大点兵，
军书十二卷，卷卷有爷名。
阿爷无大儿，木兰无长兄.
愿为市鞍马，从此替爷征。
东市买骏马，西市买鞍鞯，
南市买辔头，北市买长鞭。
旦辞爷娘去，暮宿黄河边.
不闻爷娘唤女声，但闻黄河流水鸣溅溅。
旦辞黄河去，暮至黑山头，
不闻爷娘唤女声，但闻燕山胡骑鸣啾啾。
万里赴戎机，关山度若飞。
朔气传金柝，寒光照铁衣。
将军百战死，壮士十年归。
归来见天子，天子坐明堂。
策勋十二转，赏赐百千强。
可汗问所欲，木兰不用尚书郎；
愿驰千里足，送儿还故乡。
爷娘闻女来，出郭相扶将；
阿姊闻妹来,当户理红妆；
小弟闻姊来，磨刀霍霍向猪羊。
开我东阁门，坐我西阁床，
脱我战时袍，著我旧时裳，
当窗理云鬓，对镜帖花黄。
出门看伙伴，伙伴皆惊忙：
同行十二年，不知木兰是女郎。
雄兔脚扑朔，雌兔眼迷离；
双兔傍地走，安能辨我是雄雌?

the last line is interesting and it is also the 结束语of the mulan show...

no one mentioned how she's able to survive those twelve years... no matter how mascular she might be, she cant be so guyish till no clue of her being a female can be spotted... she got to bath, she had to has her monthly women thing... hais... how she managed to keep that lie for so many years....that's a mystery though... i guess no one knows and no one will know...

In the show, so much has been modified... there's no mentioning of her husband in any historical records... but she's married in the show and lived happily ever after when she's still that young :D

though, i like the show... at least it's much better than all the korean shows now the youngs are crazy abt... at least all men in the show are men not like the korean 'cute' guys trying to charm little teenage girls by twisting their eyes and blah... well, not only the koreans... almost all the guys are doing that now.. hais...现在 人们的审美观念变得让人琢磨不透。

and i think the show is also sort of a comedy. especially the 苏吉利 part... h's funny...

i am not recommending the show to anyone cus i dont think a lot ppl will like it as much as i do...

回到家没事干，呆在电脑面前一呆就几个小时，什么也不想干，连转个身都懒得动。天啊。

考完试，终于有机会想到放松一下。进行我的健身计划。。。计划进行第一天有些叫人说不出的感觉。说痛苦吧，没那么惨，说轻松吧，那是放屁。

一大清早，和蜘蛛妹约定10点去mac ritchie reservior 跑步。

mac ritchie reservoir 我去过一些次，都是跟我妈跑。跑完全程的只有一次，因为时间不对，还是错过了4.30pm ‘关门’的 tree top，其它的都只是跑最多2公米就结束了。

也许因为平时去都是坐妈的车去，从停车场出来就直接到了那儿的公园，没有考虑另外的路线。但是，当然当天我们早上是坐巴士去的，迷迷糊糊的就走了另外一头的路线。本来打算一个小时就回家的，可中途下了大雨，被逼在一个巴掌大的亭子里躲雨。就这样跑了一个小时，困了一个小时。。。接下来的没力气写了。。。反正酸甜苦辣。。。想想还挺逗趣的。

one whole week of exams...

today i had my last physics paper in my life... i like physics pretty much but still have to give it up... hais... i like today's phy paper... since the start of this yr, i kept on struggling to pass phy, esp RA phy which i am still a fail now -.- 3 stupid DAs... my marks are no more than 70...

math math math math math i will score a 80 and abv for math 1 and 2... hopefully.. and yesh i will score !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my mom had babies....

and there's a lot of babies...

babies.....

arh.....

they are cute but ...... there was 2 then there was 7 then there was like a class of them ..... o god..... and i am suppose to take care of them.......